Tuesday, July 8, 2008

> evil-knievil

i couldn't resist doing this evil-knievil test.... unfortunately i'm not cunning enough to post the link, or at least not at this time of the evening, sorry.
guess what? my result was that i am 28 percents evil! a bit of evil lurks in my heart but i hide it well lah.......

and apparently i am the most dangerous kind of evil...the rare-one of a kind...so beware hehehehehahahahaha evil style

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

> the soul’s best friend

after many years, it still amazes me how people can still be puzzled, suspicious and critical of how comfortable i am with solitude.
does solitude convey negative visions of loneliness and isolation....?

that’s so understandable.....we are social beings and we derive a large portion of our happiness from our connections to and relationships with others. our lives is spent in search of forming, and then nurturing linkages.....girlfriend+boyfriend, husband+wife, perhaps wife+lover vice-versa....
and being alone is generally viewed with derision or pity and typically equated with loneliness......... yes?

but strangely..., when i was dating someone decades ago, i was often lonelier than now...trust me when i said that being alone is better than a doubtful relationship!

many times have i been told, ' you shouldn't be alone ! '
once any of these linkages, or couplings, ends for whatever reason, the pressure is substantial to be ' with ' some-one or several some-ones.

' you mean you went to a movie and dinner by yourself, pity... ? ' this is asked as though it were against the rules to behave in this manner as though it was odd to enjoy these things by myself, ...well...not that i don't have friends..i am fortunate enough to have many good friends, some close ones with fantastic character...love to see them,to talk to them, to ' do stuff ' with them....

it just that...sometimes, i love to just be alone. It's not a garbo-esque kind of thing. it's not melo-dramatic.... it's just….well....., easier........ i don’t have to have a meeting to decide when to go somewhere - 10 points!... or where i want to go....i just go - another 10 points!. ...do ' stuff ' i like from am to am - 50 points!...living and dreaming my own dreams - lots of points!..sometimes i can just sit and watch the world go by... yes... it can be idleness but it can also be ultimately very fulfilling.....

solitude can be every bit as exhilarating as companionship sometimes.......but of course.....i had to find companionship before i figured that out

Monday, June 23, 2008

> 30dd-story

something more unusual than i might think occurred on the catwalk during spring/summer08 shows on fashion tv last week. it happened when the model walked down the prada catwalk wearing fifties-style full skirt with a sleeveless fine-ribbed woollen cardigan etc and no bra!
and as she strode down the catwalk, her breast moved, quite-a-lot, relatively speaking.
real-moving, hanging, dancing follow the beat womanly breasts.....it was rather funny but sexy though...

gals, do not try this at home without me k
lol

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

> maybe i'm just going through a phase

do you ever feel that you’ve misjudged a relationship with someone?
lately i’ve been feeling that. i’ve tried to put it aside, but i just can’t. i’ve tried to ignore it, but it hurts just the same.

it could be that i just misread something somewhere.
maybe i’m just going through a phase.
but honestly, i feel distanced, apart, separate. and i don’t know how to get back.
confronting the problem seems like the best solution, but i don’t dare. i don’t feel like i have the right.........

there are moments where this feels worse than any broken heart..

Thursday, June 5, 2008

> queer eye - straight guy

i guess you can lump me in with the ' questioning' community after getting deep in straight-up women profession...that requires me to understand women....what they like, what color best for that or this , whats latest & trendy, that designer heels should go with this designer jeans, what tableware fit your lifestyle & so on.
trust me....every-so-often while designing any feminine theme i had to take a trip to the bathroom mirror and take a look at the dirty unkempt unshaven mass of male that looked back at me just to snap out of the estro-zone i was finding myself in at every turn...i hv to read at least 4 to 5 women fashion magazines in every month, plus other hse decor etc-etc periodicals....errr gossip magazine - sometimes....sometimes je la ok, i need back-up content for stupid small-chat during company's event, hahahaha what can i say....i'm working in a ' plastic ' industry...

and all these did influence my lifestyle though...

i'm single, .....errr yes, until now ! sigh !....and that make people believe i'm part of the ' questioning ' community....
my gay friend asked me once.... ' sister, ....you have great interest in grooming, you do facial cleansing once in every-month, ....shops like a woman specially on clothing & housewares, craze over house decor and assorted creature comforts-affinities traditionally considered the realm only of women and gay man....i wonder if you really-really sure that you are not a ' CLOSET CASE ' ? .....hmmmmmmmmmmm...' another analog player in a digital world ' ..... everbody wants to look good and hv a nice hse these days.....right?

whatever, i'm used to all these questions, i'm cool and couldn't care-less what people think of me.... ;p

o ya.....they missed these...i'm also a guy who is agree on dish towels that match the appliances! love oprah winfrey show and sex & the city...hiks!.........but that doesn't mean i'm automatically can be categorized as one of the ' questioning ' community ya....because i do enjoy other shows commonly enjoyed by straight guy...

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

> politicly correct

it's silly but funny, i like it.........hahahahahahaha

a little boy goes to his dad and asks, ' what is Politics? '
dad says, ' well son, let me try to explain it this way:

i am the head of the family, so call me ' THE PRESIDENT '.
your mother is the administrator of the money,
so we call her ' THE GOVERNMENT '.
we are here to take care of your needs,
so we will call you ' THE PEOPLE '.
the nanny, we will consider her ' WORKING CLASS '.
and your baby brother, we will call him ' THE FUTURE '.

now think about that and see if it makes sense. '

So the little boy goes off to bed thinking about what dad has said.

later that night, he hears his baby brother crying,
so he gets up to check on him .
he finds that the baby has severely soiled his diaper.

so the little boy goes to his parent’s room and finds his mother asleep.
not wanting to wake her, he goes to the nanny’s room. finding the door
locked, he peeks in the keyhole and sees his father in bed with the nanny. he knocks on the door but nothing happens.
he gives up and goes back to bed.

the next morning, the little boy says to his father,
' dad, i think i understand the concept of politics now. '

the father says, ' good, son, tell me in your own words what you think
politics is all about. '

the little boy replies,
THE PRESIDENT is screwing THE WORKING CLASS while THE GOVERNMENT is sound asleep.
THE PEOPLE are being ignored and THE FUTURE is in deep shit.......

Thursday, May 29, 2008

> damn sexy-box


my compaq is dying fast,it had a good run, 3 good years without a problem, and boy have i put it thorough its paces ,Illustrator, Photoshop, After Effects,3D StudioMAX,AutoCAD etc.... i'd like to fix it, because it's still a great machine...., but even if i could magically repair or upgrade it now, i've been thinking for over a year that it is just not powerful enough anymore....sad hah...

the good news is....it gives me a great excuse to buy a MacBook Pro! great excuse? did i just said ' great excuse?'
hah!big liar!!!!the truth is i've been waiting for intel Mac with genius bootcamp to hits shelves since 2006.....it's the best of both worlds for me as i'm tied to using a PC for AutoCAD & 3d StudioMAX but love the Mac for everything else..... If my usual CAD program proven ran smoothly on an Intel Mac, then i would definitely want to get 'this sexy box', yea! yea!.....can't wait lah, but the new stocks will only arrive by end of june!

how now brown cow..??