Monday, July 14, 2008

> melancholy me

well, it's kind of a long story.... and people tend not to believe it, even though i lived through it.... it's not because cupid's still working on me, because cupid's never gonna be done with that.... it's not because of anything i've done or not done.....shuz! there for a nano-second i thought may be...may be, i'm cursed by someone sometimes and will never be blessed with a partner.... ? because of my past sins? but...i like to think that god has a greater plan for me, i don't know what, god works mysteriously, remember...hope it's something worth waiting...amin.
many-time i tried to put my self into.. errr more likely to force my self into a relationship.....but love and luck were not on my side, blame it on me.....i wasn't mentally ready then...too many things to do, so much freedom-fun to sacrifice for a relationship!

i think even if cupid had sent a woman dressed in a latest oscar de la renta's knocking on my door with a note that this is the gal i'm supposed to marry, i doubt if i would ever believe it..... though i've always wanted to be part of ' copula ' society, i spent years not knowing what i truly want and what would be good for me in terms of relationships. it's just the last few month there was a lot of transformation in me that i am probably in a place emotionally to be able to handle a long term relationship.

past that....
i never thought about finding ' permanence ' or my ' soul mate '....until recently, but here's the real trick, how to find the right one? not gonna be easy though....i always imagining to meet someone who share the same passion-interest i did....life is for living right? sure every one had responsibilities and didn't mind those...i enjoyed my work, earned a fare living..., owned a place and paid my bills on time but i didn’t want a life where those things constituted all there was...i wanted to experience life with my loved one, do stuff we both like together....no change that

so until cupid finally sends that someone my way and god feels she's appropriate for me.....single it is.

18 comments:

  1. beautiful piece..i pray for all good things for you and all my friends..as for the time being..let's enjoy life while we still can, alright.

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  2. Nachos....you sound like the right one for rainmaker. Are you single?

    Rainmaker, maybe the person is right in front of you?

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  3. nachos,i'm done with enjoying life le...its time to find trouble..can ah?

    spena,zip it...i dont want to be beaten by a superhero la hahaha

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  4. This superhero wears underwear outside or no underwear at all?

    The bonus question is: Does he look older than the great SeaDemon?

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  5. kmr, yup sometimes the one in front of you might be the right one for you... macam I dengan SD lah.. hahahahaha...

    So Fin, cepat!!!

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  6. aminnn...best per single. ada partner kadang2 buat darah naik jer...

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  7. bro,this superhero wears pantyhose je la...

    jz, semoga bahagia selalu ye..

    in front of me is a lara croft poster....guess i hv to go to nice now-now lah

    nachos..pakai kevlar ok

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  8. rul...sabaq no...ada masa susah ada masa senang..

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  9. boleh boleh.... meh lah buat jahattttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  10. sapa yg pakai pantyhose..sapa yang pakai kevlar nih..aku ke? tapi aku tak nak jadik superhero. Yeee kmr, aku memang seloww..mula2 mcm paham..pastu mcm tak paham. yang pasti aku memang minat giler kat lara croft..sampai ada org musykil hahahahaha

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  11. bro...its a matter of time..when the time comes there will be the right person, then you both will pledge to go thru thick and thin, thru sick and sin together ..right now, enjoy and have fun every minute..like u said..life in full of surprises..surprise yourself! hehehehee

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  12. aiz, amboi haaanggg....buat jahat mcm mana ni...ingat aku dah jahat dah.
    nak ikut pi billingham can? hahaha

    nachos, hmmmm musykil-musykil...

    neome, waaaaa so inspiring ;)yes, life is full of surprises!

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  13. single pun ok ape... tapi kalau double..the merrier la..

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  14. maya, single is ok but can be boring gile sometimes...double is like gambling...can never tell whether the happiness will stay...sigh

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